Sometimes love just aint enough

Now, I don't want to lose you

but I don't want to use you

Just to have somebody by my side.

And I don't want to hate you,

I don't want to take you

but I don't want to be the one to cry

And I don't really matter to anyone anymore.

But like a fool I keep losing my place

I keep seeing you walk through that door.

But there's a danger in loving somebody to much

and it's bad when you know it's your heart you can't trust

There's a reason why people don't stay where they are

Baby, sometimes love just ain't enough.

Now, I could never change you,

I don't want to blame you.

Baby, you don't have to take the fall.

Yes, I may have hurt you

but I did not desert you.

Maybe I just want to have it all.

It makes a sound like thunder

it makes me feel like rain.

And like a fool who will never see the truth

I keep thinking something's gonna change.

And there's no way home

when it's late at night

And you're all alone.

Are there things that you wanted to say?

And do you feel me beside you in your bed

there beside you where I used to lay

when i dont fuel my car, occasionally it will burn out.

so this is how people have been doing it. 

i hate it because i always wanted to be consitent in this.

and tried to be my best version.

but it doesnt pay off.

the trust i gave,

the things we been through.

i was being understanding, i

but it was only tolerance because i accept my foolishness 

of not being able to understand.

and you know how tolerance go.

it occasionally will burn out

if you take it lightly

and there will be people who cared enough to fuel it again.

i cannot teach, i am not a teacher.

but this feelings i am having, 

they are taking so much of me.

worriness, love, pain, longings, hurt

things im not familiar to care with

when you said, 

"can we take a break?" i know you were not questioning. 

it wasnt a choice for me.

and it never gets better.

i dont know how to get better.

i tried patience

i tried laughing

i tried reasonings

i tried pulling tides

and pushing you

i tried kindness

i tried using space, giving space.

but you always needed more.

the one thing i havent tried is

to let go.

its risky but only i can save me 

i know you tried too.

but you did better

this fear you have surrounding you

and the unwillingness to share it with me

its frightens me

how we change and you not see.

how can i mingle

when i am not needed?

i truly do not know how

how can i stay 

when my questions are left unanswered?

i want to be apart of your life

anywhere you are

but if i can only be in one part of it

its heartbreaking

oh! all this same old talks, you know better.

i love me 

and i love you.

but i am burnt out.