It was before these days that i am brave and solid on spreading islamic news and reminders.
It was before these days that i am strong enough to say, no this is wrong because Allah forbids it.
It was all i am that before.
The more i learn about myself, the more that i become afraid to spread those great reminders and words.
The more i sin, the more silent i have become. I am too tiny to say Allah forbid this, you cant do this.
Too tiny because i know how low i am in His eyes. There are a lot of other people who contradicts me. Who can say Allah forbids that, its wrong.
Humbly i tell you, its not that i do not want to be who i used to be. Honestly, because i look up at everyone around me to be better than me. And yes, they are way better. They recite the al quran better, they know better. But, why is that they do things they shouldnt?
Some would say i belittle myself too much. But i am not.. maybe.
I cant leave badar because before this, when i was strong and solid i had badar as a base. I am hoping to make me strong again.
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